A sorta fairytale.

This is the end to something that was once really great but turned ugly and I'm sorry that it had to be this way because I still very much love you. And I am blaming myself for this bitter end but we all know who put more into this than anybody else. Sacrifices were made and now I sleep alone. As per you request - I will not hope for you again but rather remain "just friends". It's a shitty call to make especially when I still love you and you obviously love me. But I can understand where you're at and I'm not thinking about myself in that light. Hell I am kind of jealous that you'd kill a relationship for the benefit of your own personal growth. And yet I did not convey to you how frustrating you can be and how many times I've felt alone in the same room with you. And I'm sorry that in the end I made you unhappy - but honey you weren't alone there. Yeah OK I'm bitter to a degree because I'm lonely and you're the only one I know to call - and I don't want to give you away. I don't want to say it's over. But you don't want to be my boyfriend anymore and you clearly do not want the "security" that I gave to you. I can't see why it's so bad to have a boy like me in your life . . . It also kind of pisses me off that you'd break it off during the bad times - with hopes that there is something more out there. I should have known - I should have expected to have you do this especially being that you're 19 and still finding yourself. But I've got a lot of living to do and more love to give and I have to make something better of myself. And maybe one day we'll meet on that road again and grow old together. But in the meantime . . . I'll remember this as A Sorta Fairytale With You